Been a while...

Sorry, I haven't written for a while. I know that some of you have called and I have not returned your call, but do not think that the call went unappreciated. I'm sorry that I have not been following through with things on my end, but fact is there are no words to describe how I feel right now. I could go into more on that, but every time I do I start crying because it makes me think about the whole thing... So, I made it in to work today and am having a hard time focusing. And boy has the work piled up. Anyhow, I will be at site day tomorrow and will see some of you there. I promise I will return the phone calls some day when I'm more myself. And I'm sure journaling will resume some time soon.